Forgive my ranting

I know I haven't posted in forever, it is not because I am doing a awesome or am where I want to be. Actually quite the opposite.
Since last summer I have really struggled this may be Tmi but after my last keto run in May my horomones got out of wack, my dr said my body had never horomonaly adjusted  back to normal after having tioni and because I was on low dose birth control. I started having basically a non stop period, he put me on 3 months on high estrogen bc to hopefully help. Immediately my boobs grew and I started struggling more,  I also had insomnia and I was only sleeping 4 hours a night. After the 3 months I was up about 15 lbs.
My hormones have regulated but I am nervous to get back on any bc because of my past issues. After that round of hormones I figured the weight would just come off and when it didn't I started to feel unhappy with myself and started to put more weight on in November.
I am up to around 180lbs and not proud of it. On a positive note in January when I went to get my body fat checked I was pleasantly suprised to be at 18.7% BF lean mass at 146lbs to compare for you November 4th I was 156lbs and 16.2% lean mass 131.5lbs. So my body fat was much better than I was expecting since I put on muscle like I did.
I am so frustrated with myself for putting weight on, I have really emotionally been struggling with it and had 2 people at the gym today say things to me about it. So I guess it is time to change my attitude so now on to my real ranting.
It is so frustrating to let other people's opinions govern how we feel. By this I mean being told you should be ______ weight to be healthy for me that weight is 110 to 130lbs according to bmi (i know it is a flawed system but out is what our society uses) meaning I am penalized when getting life insurance because I am obese right now don't Ya know. But because that flawed number tells me I am obese I feel obese.
My next thing to rant about I guess it is embarrassing but people for some reason think I am pregnant on a monthly basis. Maybe it's because my daughter is almost 2 so it means I should be right? J/k. Just last week someone says oh I didn't know you were pregnant...... Wow neither did i...... Awkward silence the horrible part of that one was it was someone who knows I workout, do I really look pregnant? Don't they know to never ask that question? It just shocks me how much it happens, even this summer when I was the leanest I have ever been.
I was told this morning I need to talk nice to myself it is just so hard to do when people don't talk nice to you. I guess I look at the changes I have made and know I need to get that fat girl out of my head forever or I will never be happy with myself.

My goals: these are what I want:
Get to the point that people can look at me and know I workout, not dink around the gym but really workout.
Not have people think I'm pregnant
Not have people describe me as the big girl.

What is wrong with those goals? I can't control other people I can't achieve those goals

This is what I should want.
Become happy with myself period

I will work on that

Keto run before and after results

I recently did a Keto run (basically no carbs, high fat, high protein diet)  I primarily did this to work on loosing the stomach fat. I had my body fat done on day 1 and day 6 I was down .5%. I will have it checked later in the week after my body re adjusts to adding carbs back. Here are the before and after pics.I took the full body ones where it is a little harder to see the differences, but also the close up pics. (sorry for the butt shot!) I wanted to really document the places that needed it. and I really tried to make the poses and positioning the same, I took close up stomach pictures every day to see the small changes I was flexing in all the close up stomach shots since that is what I was trying to improve, Ab definition! for 13 days not too bad!

On a second note I had been having my body fat done every few weeks, because of my fitness level change we decided it was time to change to the 4 point check which is usually considered the most accurate, instead of an illiac pinch it does a stomach pinch right next to the belly button and includes a thigh pinch. I figured this would make my body fat jump up (it was at 21% the way we normally test and have tested for the past few years) but instead it dropped. With a 4 point pinch I was at 16.35%, However.... I know I am not 16% Body fat, but with excess skin and my build we figure a pretty good estimate of what I am is half way between the 2, which would land me 18 to 19%. Body Fat measuring is really about consistency, Which is why I always have Chance do it. We are going to be switching over to the 4 point so I will be saying those numbers and the others just so everyone knows!

Gold's gym 12 week Challenge results

So 2 weeks ago I found out I had won the 12 week challenge at the gym in the employee division! So excited here are the official pics from that! I was trying to look bad in my 1st pics, since the competition is judged completely on the pictures. Here they are! Change was -24lbs and a little over 5% body fat